Two more feet in my backseat!!

Introducing Makenna Mae!!! We now have two more feet in our backseat and in our hearts! She entered the world on December 28, 2011 and we are in love. Things have ben a lil hectic so I am just gettting to post this now. She is being loved on by her big brothers and put some more estrogen in our house :) yay.....PINK!! Which I am still getting used to seeing. Kenny laughed when I said look we have pink fuzz in the dryer vent!! So without further ado here's a picture of our lil' princess.

newborn

almost 3 months

Expanded by two feet and filled my backseat!

We would like to introduce our new bundle of joy who has filled our hearts with love.....James Alexander was born on February 10, 2011 at 11:09  8lbs. 13oz. 21in

Our family has expanded by two feet and we couldn't be any happier than we are right now. Just a month ago I wrote about looking back in the backseat and seeing Sam there and it takes my breath away. There are no words to explain the feeling of having two lil boys who are my life, in the backseat now! I looked back as we left the hospital bringing James home and it hit me hard. I LOVE my life and my boys.

Looking back <---

It happened again, I cried. I looked back into the back seat as I was driving, looked at Sam sitting in his seat and welled up and the tears started to fall. I do this all the time. I just can not believe I have a child, my life, sitting in my backseat. All of the years I would drive around and wish I had a car seat in my car, one that would have a baby in it, and my wish came true. It still catches me by surprise and takes my breath away.
How lucky am I to be his mommy?!? I have no words to describe the complete and utter love that fills my heart when I look at this lil' man. ohhhh here come the tears again :) lol

2011

Happy New Year!! I cannot for the life of me believe another year has passed, time is flying wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy to fast. Our lil' man is getting bigger by the day and he is so funny and incredibly cute. He makes me happy. This morning we are sitting on the couch and he's writing in his pad and talking out loud, "I love you mommy, love Sam" my heart melted right there!! How in the world did we get so lucky to have him be our son? How?
This year was great, started off spending time with Brynn on New Year's Eve last year and then Feb came and I got to meet a very good friend in person when she came and stayed with us for a few days. March was brought 2 beautiful blessings, our twin nephews Alex and Ben. April we had a long weekend trip with Brynn. May we got to go see Brynn leave for her prom, which was sooooo special to us! We also went to Florida for 2 weeks and had a blast. Sam loved it. The summer was full of swimming at the pool and bbq's. August we had a week at the beach with Brynn and her whole family!! Such a special fun time. My fav is a picture of the whole family, including us on the beach, just LOVE it!! September brought sadness for our hearts, we lost Linda. She was Kenny's dad's girlfriend of 8 yrs and we love her and will miss her very much. It also brought new life, Brynn's sister had her first baby. Baby Michael is so cute, can't wait to meet him! October was the lil man's big day, he turned 3!!! Brynn came for the party weekend. It was really awesome to have her here for his birthday. November we were off to Georgia and Florida. Our stop in Georgia let me meet another amazing friend in person. LOVE the Internet for this!:) It also gave us our 1st trip to the ER. Sam ran into a coffee table with his head and needed stiches. Ended up being steri strips and he was a Rock Star!!! Not a tear from him at the hospital. It's all healed and you can hardly see it now. Florida was beautiful and the perfect weather. My parents came with and loved it. November also introduced us to some new friends that we are hoping will be a part of our lives forever. December, COLD!! It went by very fast. Christmas was wonderful and special because Sam understood Santa. He is even getting up each morning and running outside to the living room to see if Santa left him more presents. We're working on him getting that Santa doesn't come everyday, LOL!! We had a blizzard the day after Christmas which cancelled our plans to see Brynn :( another day it must be. This stinking snow also caused us to be without power and heat for 15 hrs. brrrrrrrrr it was cooooollllldddddd! New Years Eve was home, no place I'd rather be :)
Here's hoping 2011 is filled with love, laughter, blessings, family, friends and hope.
Love to all! xoxo

Had to post these, because they are funny! :)

  Sammy aka Batmannnnnnnnnn                                   
                                            
Robin and a lil' bob the bulider thrown in
                                        
I am the Joker and Robin is trying to shoot me :)

I got an award!

                                                      

Lil' ol me got a blog award! I totally don't deserve one because I am a complete blog slacker, Ashleigh just loves me :) lol Thank you so much to one of my fav birth mommas!! Go and read her blog its awesome and....she actually updates it! :))) and I know you're jealous I got to meet her and give her a hug :)
Here are my picks for the Cherry on Top Award!

• http://momentswithlove.blogspot.com/ 
• http://www.pink-moss.com/
• http://singleinfertilefemale.blogspot.com/
• http://statisticallyimpossible.blogspot.com/
• http://thearizonaexperiment.blogspot.com/

Happy Thanksgiving!

I am thankful and my heart is full!

Halloween pics

 Fireman Sam and his polka-dot puppy

 Fireman Sam and Dorothy

 Daddy and Fireman Sam

 Sam, Julia, Alex, Ben, Annie, Meghan

 Aunt Nancy reading Dr.Seuss

 Sammy and Julia after a loooong day of trick-or-treating!

I know Halloween is near but, I'm not really a ghost!!

I really need to update this and I promise I will. We will be on vacation soon and I will have some time to do it. My absence stated with vacation I think and then the summer and I was just enjoying life and honestlly, I'm not really a blogger! There I admitted it, I was a good faker for a while but I'm not. I will go back and do my best to try and be a good blogger lol. I adore people who can write well, I soooo wish it was me :)
Basically we have been trying to network in hopes of adopting and still no luck yet. The tide may be changing, I am getting a feeling. Who knows we'll see. I will be back and I will back up and fill you in onour summer months and more, even Sammy sweetpea's 3rd Birthday!! What a big boy now!!!
Ok, adios for now.
xoxo

How Do I Say Thank You?

by Joy Saunders Lundberg




Two little boy eyes looking up at me,

Showing me the love I had longed to see.

Two little boy arms wrapped around my heart,

Making me smile right from the very start.



Two little boy feet soon were running fast,

Finding all the fun as each day would pass,

And filling my life with such joyful things,

Making my heart so full I had to sing.





(Chorus)

How do I say thank you?

How do I say thank you?

How do I say thank you?

It’s something I must do

To the child who brought

Such joy into my life;

Who chased away the shadows

And brought in so much light?

How do I say thank you?

How do I say thank you?



One cute little boy growing every day,

Learning how to work and to love and pray.

A bigger boy now lighting his own flame,

Making us proud he bears our family name.



From boy into man, now he’s all grown up,

Married with a wife that I love so much,

Now giving me more little ones to hold,

Giving me more than all the world’s gold.



(Repeat Chorus, then add tag)



Maybe I say it by simply just saying

Thank you, thank you.

(Softly spoken) I love you.





Credits: Lyrics from the Adoption Album Do You Have a Little Love to Share

Produced by Adoption Media

All words and music copyright © 2005 Janice Kapp Perry and Joy Saunders Lundberg
 
I copied this from another blog http://ldsinfertility.blogspot.com/  because it made me cry. My little boy is growing up sooooo fast! :(

We are soooooooooooo LUCKY!!

Just had to say how lucky we are to have B in our lives. Talked to her for a long time today (hi B!)and it was awesome :) Love her and we are getting to see her next weekend!! I can't wait.

Some new pictures of Sam

Fireman Sam

surfer dude!

Mommy, Daddy and Sam

B & Sam

surf's up!

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....

READ THIS!!

My good friend Michelle is a guest blogger on Birthmothers 4 Adoption. Please read her beautifully written words!! Love u girl :)
http://birthmothers4adoption.blogspot.com/2010/08/guest-blogger-omg-what-have-i-done.html

Am I a baby snatcher???

I have been thinking about this for a few weeks. I have been reading alot of things that upset me. Although I love getting other perspectives on things, this particular opinion hurts my heart. I have been reading lots of posts on other blogs and have also been reading the responses. Alot of what is being said is basically that adoptive parents are baby snatchers. Open adoption is a lie and we have coerced young, unexpectedly pregnant women into giving their babies to us. Well as I pondered this and thought if this was true in "my case" I came up with this.
~We were introduced to Sam's birthmom by HER Uncle, they had no idea what we looked like, there was no shiny profile, no "oh hey, look at us we're perfect". It was just a plain and simple, she was pregnant and wanted to make an adoption plan, a decision that had nothing to do with us.
~Next was when we met, we talked and answered questions for 6 hrs. with the birthparents and their moms. We didn't hold a gun to their head and say pick us, but they still did because they believed we would be good parents for their little boy.
~Moving on through the next 3 months, we got to know each other better and told each other our fears and concerns and how we would ALL like everything to be. We took their lead on everything, never forced them to do anything.
~Now for the day our son came into this world. We did not go to the hospital as per their request. We waited to hear the news with a phone call. We waited and waited....we thought he was to be born around noon and we hadn't heard anything all day. Finally at about 7:30pm we couldn't take not knowing if B was ok if Sam was ok and we texted M's mom (B is birthmom & M is birthdad) and asked how they were? She called back and said you have a son!! We got all the details and then waited to her from B's mom. Well we didn't get that phone call til the morning. Now for anyone that has done adoption before knows this waiting is extremely hard. Yes, we did hear from M's mom but needed to hear we would still be parents from B's mom and those 13 hrs were very long. My point of this being we NEVER called and harrassed them to find out, we waited and prayed til they called on their own to tell us to come to Philly.
~So, now we are in Philly in front of the hospital and we call to say we are there and B's mom tells us that B isn't up to seeing us right now. Well honestly we thought we were experiencing another failed adoption :( We turned the car around and were headed to my aunts. We did not storm the hospital and say "hell no we won't go" and demand to see "our" baby. After all it was her baby and she had every right to see who she wanted too and when she was ready. As we were on our way, we got another phone call saying, "ok, you can come but, she wants to hold the baby while you're here" to which we said "of course". We went and saw him and B asked if I wanted to hold Sam and I said "no" its ok, you hold him. She said no, I really want you to. So... I did and it took everything I had not to kiss and snuggle him and cry when I did. I did not want to make her upset or uncomfortable, she was allowing me to hold him. when she clearly didn't want to at first and I wanted to respect that. We stayed about an hour and left, so she could have that precious time with him.
~Now for discharge at the hospital. We were to wait alllll dayyyy til B went home before we could go to the hospital to get Sam. She didn't want to see us leave with Sam. I totally get that. And we respected that and did as they asked. As we left the hospital I called B's mom to tell her we did have him and that all was ok.
~ Fast forward the week and we get a text from B asking if she could see him again before we go back to NY. Well again, we thought because she didn't want us to hold him or see us leave with him, she had changed her mind and was going to tell us she wanted him back. They had signed the papers the day before, but they had 45 days after that to change their mind. And even though we thought that we said ok, and went over their house the next night. We didn't just skip town and say heyyy if you want him back come to NY, we did what was right for Sam, for B and for us.Well she just wanted to see him and love him and take pictures and it was the best thing we ever did. That one night with their family made us all a real family.
~ Present day...us trying to adopt again. We have had 3 emotional scammers since we have been trying, my thoughts on this are too much to get into right now but I think we have had them because we are so open. We believe in open adoption. I know there are alot of PAP's that promise it and don't want it but, we do. And I think this is why I am able to be sucked in by these emotionally needy women. I also think that I have let it go to far because I DO NOT want to be coercive. I give info so they can talk to other women considering adoption as well as other woman who have. I never push them to make a decision, in fact I tell them they should take their time. I actually just take the time to get to know each other. Well unfortunately this gets taken advantage of. And now although I really want to be very open and give as much space as needed, I am a little more guarded with my time and my emotions. Any way I digress.

So am I a baby snatcher???? What do you think?

Can you say....SLACKER!!

It started when we went away and then since we have gotten back we have been in summer mode. Not in the mood to write too much. I will update this coming week, including some new pics. Nighty night! xoxo

Happy Father's Day!

To the best Daddy in the world!!! I love you more each day because I love the way you love Sammy! I love seeing your face when you look at him. I love when you say I love you boomba to him. I love when you give him tons of smookies! I love when you fall asleep together, melts my heart. I love how you always want to be home to hang out with him. I love when you look at me with that smile because he said something cute and you know I'm thinking the same thing. I love that you send B pics of him even when I am not there. I love when you read him his books. I love when I hear the two of you laughing and I am in the other room. I love that you love being a daddy!!!!
I love you!!! Thank you for making my dreams come true, you're a wonderful husband and an amazing Daddy!! I can't wait for our next lil' one to meet their Daddy and I can't wait to see your face when that happens.
Happy Father's Day my love xoxoxo

Timing!

I am having a hard time right now waiting for our little one to find their way to us. It's been a long road and I am feeling a little discouraged. I believe it will happen in God's time and I know this to be true because we have Sam as living proof! BUT...... it's hard when your heart aches for the baby that you want so badly. Thank God for Sam and his sweet smile and hugs. He makes the waiting tolerable. He also reminds me of what a blessing we receive when a mom picks us to love her baby forever and for that I am grateful. I know the wait is meant to be, I know we have to be in the right place at the right time for the special mom and baby to find us. Thank you to my incredible hubs and my family and great friends that put up with my craziness while we wait for God's timing to be right!
I saw this quote on This is a Site for Birthmothers by Birthmothers and like they say, its all in the timing, it's exactly what I need right now!!!

“Life is all about timing... the unreachable becomes reachable, the unavailable become available, the unattainable... attainable. Have the patience, wait it out It's all about timing.”

This is me trying to be patient! :)

because...this is the blessing we got with patience and timing before, SAM!!!

Happy Mother's Day

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.



Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much...
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body..
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom ...

Happy Birth Mother's Day!

To our dear B,
We love you more than words can say! You are part of our hearts forever, and we are so blessed to have you in our lives!! Thank you from the bottom of our hearts for choosing us to be Sam's parents. We love him, and you more than anything in the world.
Love always,
Meghan, Kenny & Sam

Soooooo......

We have had a fun filled week. We had a blast at Chucky Cheese. Sam got lots of tickets and then all he wanted with them was candy. He loves playing basketball and loved playing fireman on the cool game they had with a hose and all. We also met a really nice couple who was in NY because they just adopted a baby. They were waiting for ICPC to clear to go back to Missouri. The baby was very sweet and they were so happy. Boy, was I a little baby envious. The nice way of saying jealous, lol!!! :)



The rest of the week was filled with playing outside, planting flowers, Sam even helped with that. He is also now watering them too.

And finally the big day, we were off to Philly to see B off to her Prom. She looked absolutely beautiful!!!! We are soooo lucky she asked us to come. We had an amazing time, watching her get ready and then the tons of pics when her date arrived. Then we were off to the school to see all the kids leave. We we got there it was so cute, Sam saw B and was screaming her name from across the parking lot! He was so excited to see her. After that we headed back to her mom's house and hung out with family. It was really cool, her brother and sister's were there along with lots of cousins, aunts and uncles. A few of her mom's friends as well. What was really nice some of them hadn't met Sam yet so thats was extra special. Sam gets being a rockstar from his birth grandma!! Sam was choking on a french fry and she turned him upside down and got it out!!! Can you say OMG! I loved this woman before now even more so. She saved my son from choking. I was soooo scared, we were both crying. Well the night was great all around and we can't wait to see everyone again. I got some really sweet pictures of Sam and B! One in particular made me cry. I go upstairs when she was getting ready and I go in the room and see Sam helping her put on her shoes. It was too sweet for words.


Hmmm... what else? Well we have been having some major water gun fights! We got supersoakers for Sam and boyyyyy is he loving them. Two days in a row we were soaked. Yesterday when Kenny got home from work Sam and I ganged up and got him!! I am guessing it was a welcome surprise since he worked a bike race all day in the heat and sun. Speaking of that, his head got really sunburned. OUch!! This is our new news for the week. See ya soon! :)